Depression is something I’ve rivalled on and off with my whole life, as though we were brother and sister fighting over some toy, except I’m the toy, with bits coming off in the struggle.
That is how depression really feels. It is an all consuming illness, and can take over every part of your life. It swallowed me whole, and I had no idea who I was or what I wanted any more. I felt like I had lost myself, and couldn’t get myself back.
And it almost dug a permanent hole for me. Sometimes you really don’t even know what’s reality and what isn’t, especially when anxiety comes along as well. You can be in a complete state of disillusion, and can feel very alone, that in the deepest part of the struggle, you feel there is only one way out.
Luckily for my own circumstances, I had my son. I knew I couldn’t leave him, no matter how much pain I was going through, I was bigger than that to him. I didn’t want to cause him pain. It gave me enough strength to pull myself out and reach for help.
You can read more on my personal story of depression here.
Others are sometimes consumed so much by the hurt and pain that they don’t know any other option. It pains me to think how many lives have been lost by an inner struggle, where they felt so alone. No one should ever have to feel that way.
Some days I still suffer, where it brings me down, but after so many years of fighting with depression, I now know how to ward it off, or get through the day with a few different strategies. I learnt this by getting help, and working with an amazing counsellor for over a year. She taught me how to step back into reality, and how to find myself again. Some people don’t know where to go though, or how to help themselves.
That’s why this month I’m supporting the Liptember campaign – a campaign raising awareness for women’s mental health. They are spreading the word with lipstick and raising funds that go towards services to support women who are in need, and suffering from depression and anxiety.
These funds go towards Centre of Women’s Mental Health, Lifeline, Batyr, RUOK?, The Jean Hailes Foundation and The Pretty Foundation, all services for mental health. How fantastic is that?
Now, I’m not sure if you’re reading this post because you follow me, or maybe your a blogger like me with an aim to raise awareness on depression, or maybe your going through depression yourself (in which case, my heart goes out to you, and don’t forget there is always support even though I know it feels so alone at times – honestly, even message me directly through the Contact page).
But, I hope that this email reaches the right person. We need to raise awareness, and we need to raise funds, so that depression ISN’T a stigma anymore. So that depression ISN’T a silent killer anymore. So it’s OK to feel like shit, and feel down sometimes, as long as you can share this turmoil with somebody who can help you, without feeling alone and scrutinised by everyone.
Please help me with this cause so close to my heart by donating to the wonderful Liptember campaign, and helping women stand up and feel better again! I’m raising funds as part of the campaign, and you can find my donation page by clicking the banner below.
No one should have to be alone in the struggle. Help women today by donating, so services can be available to every one!